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September 30th, 2006

Ugh every time Josh called today I wasn’t home.  We got to talk and all every time but I feel horrible that I wasn’t home and able to sit in a quiet room and just talk to him for as long as we usually do.  I haven’t cried in a day or two but that record is about to be broken.  Ugh.  The first time he called I was at the movie theater with my mom & Bri watching Open Season.  The second time he called I was at Walmart looking for a pillow case for the travel size pillow I got him earlier.  The third time I had just finished having dinner with my parents & Bri and was leaving the restaurant.  It doesn’t help that while we were talking he said things were about to get busy and didn’t know when he’d call back.  I just hope and pray he gets another chance to call soon.  I feel horrible.  I shouldn’t even complain about not being able to talk to him for very long, and I’m not at all.  I just feel horrible that I wasn’t completely available to him.

Yikes.

September 20th, 2006

I just got an e-mail from the future cool MIL that said Kassi’s (Josh’s sister) boyfriend was in an accident today.  So keep them in your prayers, good thoughts, vibes, whatever you do.  It’s too late to call Kassi but hopefully I’ll reach her tomorrow to see if they need anything.

UPDATE: Josh (also the boyfriend’s name) seems to be mostly banged up.  I talked to Kassi this morning and he was being stubborn about not going to see a doctor but she was trying.  Apparently a car turned out in front of him and in order to avoid it, he skidded, flipped about 4 or 5 times and whatnot on some loose gravel.  He wasn’t wearing a helmet either.  Crazy guy.

Yipee!

July 28th, 2006

Josh & I leave for the river early in the morning!  I could not be more excited!  I have my pink chair, my pink sleeping bag and I’m either packing in my pink duffle bag or a pink suitcase.  But maybe I can just fit it all into my backpack, which isn’t pink, not to overload on the pink!

Ya know what I am not excited about?  The fact that we lost our first soccer game today.  I think the score was something like 6-0 or 7-0.  We got spanked so hard, geez.  Our last game is next Tuesday and I’m ready for this to be over and done with.

Okay I’m off to start doing a little laundry and packing some clothes.  The man with the most beautiful eyes I have ever seen just dropped me off and should be packing up the Xterra so we can gooo!

Hope you all have a wonderful weekend.

Oh my gosh!

July 26th, 2006

This one almost made me spit.  But Monica said I shouldn’t spit because boys don’t like that.  And I’m leaving the rest out.  If you know Monica, you’ll know what the rest is though.  Dirty, dirty girl!

Me: Josh called from Target asking me if I wanted a pink chair for the river this weekend!  He bought me a PINK chair!  How many points is that?  At least 10!

Monica: the damned thing is PINK! give him 15 points and a handjob!

Ya know, I go for point advice to this woman and she comes back with this!  What on earth is wrong with her!?  LMAO!  People are just plain sick these days!

*sigh* part 2

July 23rd, 2006

Well I caved in and went to hang out with Josh again.  Loaded the daughter up and headed on out there.  I mean way out there in the country.  I had a wonderful time while out there and even saw a shooting star on the way back.

We just sat outside with his mom, dad, younger sister and brother while him and his brother played the guitar and sang.  I really liked his family and they were all very nice to the I’m-Going-To-Play-Shy-When-the-Sweet-Lord-Knows-I’m-Not girl of mine and I.  His brother tried to play a song about her but she chose to cover her ears like a rude little girl!  We’ve got some lessons to learn!  haha!

They went to bed one at a time and by the end of the night it was just the three of us sitting out there while we got mobbed by the paparazzi (read: little girl mentioned above)!  So out of like, well a bunch, of pictures I should have a couple of cute ones in there!

Ahhh!

July 17th, 2006

Joshua gets home in 4 days.  I won’t get to see him though until the following morning, where he’s going to watch the soccer game.   Isn’t it wonderful?  He gets to see me for the first time looking like complete crap, nice and sweaty.  It’s so not fair but that’s okay.  I’ll think of something!

Who is Joshua/Josh!?  We went to the same junior high and high school together but never talked.  I found him on MySpace in late May and have been talking since.  I once, dated his friend J* for a short period of time, maybe yearsa go.  One of the dumbest relationships, if you want to call it that.  But that’s another story for another time!  Josh has been in training to go over to Iraq and we sent a whole crap load of text messages while he wasn’t able to call.  Our phone conversations, when he can call, are always at or over 2 hours.  But he’ll be home in 4 days!

His mom called me on Saturday to invite me to the BBQ she will be ha